Good medicine is bitter to the mouth

There is a Chinese proverb “foo houw lurng yerk”, which I translate to as good medicine is bitter to the mouth. Whatever is good to you is difficult to swallow. For the past 2 weeks I’ve been popping vitamins and supplements non stop because many of my coworkers were falling ill one by one. Finally, I fell victim to the flu and I have been sick for the past week and had to take 2 days off work. I’ve been having problems swallowing my flu/cold medication, and now I can’t even swallow my usual supplements any more. It became a very conscious effort.

What is good for you is not the easiest to take in. It would be tough; it would get you frustrated; it would make you put your hands up in resignation. As long as you have faith that it is good for you, you would gulp it down – if you still can’t, you would crush it, shoot it, snort it, liquefy it, or do whatever you can to have your body accept it. The problem comes when you’re not certain it’s good for you.

YES!!!

I don’t know if it is because of my love for Zooey Deschanel’s quirkiness (I was aware of and loved the Deschanel sisters before 500 Days of Summer showed), but I felt really really good after watching Yes Man.

I have always been a fan of Jim Carey, but his movies haven’t been the biggest commercial or critical successes after the 90’s. I was not tempted to watch Yes Man in the theatre, and only did so after I got a copy from my friend (after a failed attempt to view Man on the Moon).

I had expected a regular slapstick comedy a la JC, but I think Zooey Deschanel made up for it. She is adorable as always, playing the quirky free-spirited girl with witty conversations and an open mind and heart. She has a husky voice (which I love) and piercing blue eyes peeking out behind the dark hair. She is the girl that all guys love and all girls adore. Somehow I’ve got a hunch that is her in real life too.

Anyhow, this isn’t a movie review. This movie made me feel… light, made my heart flutter. It definitely is a feel good movie, but so many aspects resonated in me. I admire and pursue traits in Zooey – love for spontaneity, witty banter, comfortable to be around because she doesn’t care about being impressed (at least not in the conventional ways), not trying to impress people around her, and doing things from the heart. The last trait, I must say, is something I have to sort out. I do put my heart into doing many things, meanwhile my rationality can interfere. That is why I am not fully a free-spirited person.

Watching this movie opened me up again. It’s not like I haven’t been open to new experiences, but I didn’t open myself up. I worry too much and keep holding myself back because I am not sure of taking chances. This movie, coincided with events the last two days, lifted me a bit.

1. On Friday, I decided that I will give myself a rest and not feel guilty about being unproductive. In the end, I applied to a few jobs.

2. I got a reply from a job I applied for out of fun – I completely customized the resume and cover letter. It’s a trainee position, and I thought what the heck, might as well try, and I’m interviewing on Monday!

3. I attended a funeral service. It didn’t hit too close to me… after the lunch, I felt a lot better being able to chat and laugh in the context. It felt like a release from being appropriately miserable. It felt like things were going to be better.

All of these were positive encouragements to life being hopeful. I just have to do it and not think too much. Things are alright. I will get over the hump. Life is alright.

PS. Zooey Deschanel and Katy Perry definitely can pass for sisters, couldn't they?

Even found a pic of them together:

Significance

Within the past 48 hours, I completed two research papers - one from scratch - and survived on a total of 7 hours of sleep. Strangely, these were the closest to all-nighters that I've had in my final year. Maybe that shows I'm a good student? O:-D

One of my research papers is a full on scientific experimental study. I am a double major student, and one of those majors is Psychology. Honour students at my school need to conduct a study and write a research paper to graduate. This was probably my only major fear in my post secondary career. I went through some difficulties, and I panicked like maaaaaaaaad - near hyperventilating, near tears, near suicidal. When you're trying to run a statistical program and you don't understand stuff, seeing this on wiki does not help:

DO NOT WANT.

This is so cliche, but it really described how I felt in the split second my 50 pages of work were done printing -- empty. Mind says: "So... that's it?"

Silence.

I am done.

Wait for me...

Dear sweetest, cutest, most cheerful Isaac with the sneakiest smirk,

Please don't grow up. I haven't seen you crawl or walk around yet. By the time I'm back in Hong Kong, you won't even know who I am. Will you still smile at everyone and let anyone hold you? :'(
I can't tell time any more. I have no idea how old I am or am supposed to act. Catching glimpses of you will remind me how I am less and less a child any more. Growing up is kinda scary. Especially when you don't have many things to remind you how it was like being little. Moving and house renovations cut off memory cues. Thanks to your granny and aunties, I will always feel like a kid when I visit their home. When I see you again, I will make sure I treat you as my baby as your mommy has treated me like her own.

Love,
Your big cousin.

~ ~ ~ ~ ~

I intended to just post and show off my uber cute cousin... but I didn't realize how much I missed all my family. If being a cousin feels like this, I can't imagine how mothers feel. These are some of the things I am giving up by trying to be a responsible grownup and finding work away from home. A late Happy Mother's Day to aunties and gran. I'm sorry I can't say it directly because I'm too Chinese like that.

LOLSindy

iz hapeez todai. had Popeye's fried chikun and browneez fur dinnah. wuz very produktiv too. and see post beeloh! gnitez

WTF

me: i want fries
i want food from thisiswhyyourefat.com
i had lots of bread but kinda wana eat

PL: what do u want to eeaaattttttt

me: i said frrieess
cheese, bacon, potato skin potato wedges
too bad Milestone's offer isnt today =/

PL: what the faaatt
:((((((

me: LOOOOLLL

Seriously, this is me inside:

Shit, I need to claim whatthefat.com. Um... check out WTF on blogger if you wanaa....

Link: Boobs - Perky, Saggy, Extraordinary

Denise Richards' Funbags!!



Sheyla Hershey is plastic surgery crazy - going from FFF cup to KKK to MMM, causing her to have a heart problem and another procedure complicates her pregnancy. >>



After the fact that a walrus knows how to dance more than me, an 83 year old granny pulls moves like this. *wimpers in a corner* >>

In other news, Geocities is closing!! Yes, erase all evidence of pages I've created back around Y2K!!

Another reason I have nothing to complain about in this world.
I'm such a sucker for emotional advertisements.

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It kills me to write about myself.

I figured my list on Facebook wasn't very legit and kept thinking of things to add! So I'll keep track of them here, 10 at a time.

1. I'm a stickler for proper English. "your stupid"... stupid what? (If you didn't get that, don't bother)
   
2. I like being a teacher. Out of my generation of cousins, I'm the oldest so I'm always the teacher when played school. Later, I thought being a teacher would be cool because I'd get all the holidays and - if I was an International school teacher, all the benefits too!
3. The part of my body that I am proudest of is.... my ribcage. Kiddiinnggg hahahaha so anorexic. Actually they're my fingertips/ fingernails. They're so perfectly shaped and curved :D
4. When I am conversing online, I laugh a lot textually.
   
5. Sometimes, when I see something funny online, my mind says, "LOL" as in the letters themselves... ell oh ell.
   
6. I just realized recently that my textual laughing could be quite intimidating, actually. Does anyone agree or disagree?
   
7. I have a lot of internal conflicts, big and small. e.g., I want to go into advertising, but I don't want to promote materialism. I guess that's an extra thing you learned about me.
   
8. I won awards for speech contests...
   
   ... they were for Chinese school during the weekends, and the other kids can barely speak Cantonese properly.
   
9. I don't like talking about myself because I feel it is conceited. Having a blog based on my preferences and me in general is a contradiction. See #7. I feel like an arachnophobia staring at a dead tarantula, waiting for it to come back alive any second now.
   
10. I love to organize things. I estimate that I rearrange my room once a month and my closet 4x a year, at least. If I type notes, I want to make sure that I won't be left with a page with only 1/4 filled. That wastes paper!
11. Bonus, included for next time: I am prone to being environmentally friendly.
    

Final thing about me.. I am jealous that this walrus can do ballroom dancing. The world is so unfair.



-- written Mar 26

I came up with this exact hair style one morning before school around 4-6 years ago. I also started wearing my hair in a bun with a thin headband one day 5-6 years ago, before it was trendy. I'm guessing I'm ahead-of-my-time in hairstyles? Is that my talent then?? What a waste of time taking Physics and Calculus. Psshh.

This is so freaky but I am so curious! One thing I don't wana do to my hair is teasing it. It's frizzy enough; I don't need more damage! Been hearing a lot of positive reviews...

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My prof quotes HIMYM ("so by mid 20's you're gonna have to add Facebook to your Murtaugh List"), 30 Rock (when you want to own music, where do you get it from? Where do you go? "I want to go to there"), and RickRolling... how friggin' awesome is that? 

YOU can help me with my Thesis!

Hi everyone,

I am taking a Psychology thesis course that requires me to conduct a study. I am seeking participants for a survey online: must be 18-25 years old and comes from a divorced family. If you do not fit the criteria, it would help me if you can forward this to anyone you may know who might. The information is posted on http://tinyurl.com/ThesisConsentForm.

Thanks a lot for your help! Have a happy Easter!

Triplets

I once knew a set of triplets named Amelia, Bedilia, and Cordelia.

They played quietly everyday by the window. Sometimes they spied on the neighbours and whispered made up stories about them.

One by one, they grew to be beautiful darlings.

Soon they moved away, and I heard another set of triplets were moving in. They were named Darcia, Elicia, and Felicia.


Little did I know, I was expecting more than three little buds!

I'm thinking of Garcia, Halina, and Julianna.

FLOWER POWER!!

Pushing Daisies is back!



Must have caused my sudden love for flowers. It's the loveliest show on earth. Vivid colours, quick dialogues, quirky characters, woman with eye patch, and a restaurant called the Pie Hole? Gonna watch it now.

Update: I just found out it is only back on my streaming site, not the actual season. Is it really really really really canceled?????????????? :((((((((((

ABC canceled it - shows like Two and a Half Men survive. Fuck you ABC.

I am so vain I probably think I am writing about me.

I took the Narcissism test via thecoolest.
Average is 15, celebs avg around 17.8 .

Guess what I got? Seventeen. I am a frickin' celebrity, maan. Slaappin' the basss, maaannn. But I pretty much tipped the scale to the authority aspect. Respect my authoritaaaayyyy!

I need me a badge, maaaan

I am a soon to be Psychology graduate and I approve the face validity of this test.



Hi Dixon! If you see this - thanks for coming to my blog during class :)

Balanced Diet

I've been eating a bit healthier lately. I'm trying to not sleep as late, so I decided that I can't have midnight snacks or heavy meals that'll keep me awake. And by doing that, I shifted all heavier foods to earlier in the day (lunch/tea time). And by doing that, I have shifted tons of veggies and fruits to the end of the day, instead of having pastas and meat and oily foods. I don't necessarily eat healthier, but a bit more balanced. For example, last 2 day's meals:

Mon:
Breakfast- 2 scrambled eggs, buttered whole wheat toast
Lunch - 2 slices pepperoni pizza
Dinner - spinach salad and 2 potato croquettes (with lots of Japanese mayo, yum)

Tues:
Breakfast - 2 hash browns and sausage mcmuffin :D :D :D
Lunch - home - leftover (super lean and dry) salmon and 2 slices of whole wheat brownie cake
1 banana
Dinner - spinach salad w/ avocado, tomato, cucumber, and chicken breast, with olive oil, balsamic vinegar, sesame oil, and sesame dressing. another slice of cake xD

I guess every meal focuses on one food group?
And yes I've been sleeping earlier, but b/c I had to wake up earlier for various reasons. I hope I can wake up early tomorrow too, cuz I still have some work to get done for tmr's 2:30 class.

I already feel so much more productive. I procrastinate still, but I get so much more done waking earlier. Maybe b/c of the nice weather and extra daylight? And maybe cuz there are happy things on my mind... I am more conscious of reasons to wake up and do things.

Maintenant, il fait beau.

I dream of a Black Paris Hilton and Victoria's Secret models

There's a reason I record down my dreams.

Just today, I was supposed to wake up at 10:30, but I went back to sleep. By the time I woke up at 11:40, I dreamt of Paris Hilton and Beyonce, Victoria's Secret models, and Oprah.

First, I dreamt that I was watching movies with these 2 people I don't know in a bedroom, and we're all just chilling. Then skip ahead a few moments later, I'm in a lingerie store and there stood...

Alessandra Ambrosio. She was looking and picking out some lingerie and turned around when I entered. And then I woke up to the first alarm. (dammit)

It was cold and I didn't have class in a few hours, so I just stayed in my cozy bed for a bit more...

And I dreamt that I was watching TV with le boyfriend in bed (being the lazy bums we are). The room was neither of ours, and there was a TV mounted on the wall/ceiling - those big, chunky ones from the 90s with the black shell and convex front. It was showing Oprah (I never watch Oprah!!), and the stage and background were blue. On the side of the stage stood Beyonce and Paris Hilton, both wearing a red sparkly strapless dress that touches the floor, and a slit up to their thigh... Now that I'm thinking of it again, it's the the Jessica Rabbit dress that Jessica Biel wore on SNL!!

So anyway, not only did I dream of Beyonce and the Herpes Queen, but they were made up to look like each other. Paris'ed-Beyonce was pale, with curly blond hair, and her lips are super thick (just to show that it's still a black woman underneath). I didn't see much of Beyonce'd-Paris because the camera didn't stay on her for long as Paris'ed-Beyonce started singing her dramatic ballads, with the typical arching of the back and holding the mic up in the air like she's a sword swallower ready to inhale that tiny mic.

Dude, are my dreams strange?! One theme is... I'm always in bed...???

Flying Elephants

I want to breathe in the smell of grass, feel the chill of the morning dew, and rest my eyes in shades of green.

My new favourite blog: http://www.aerophant.com/

Cupcakes on a Spaceship

an excerpt from my dream log, typed on my iPod touch hence the terrible flow of sentences:

-- Star wars ish
was in a old school jap cartoon style space carrier, imagining out the front glass was jsut a screen showing what camera capturedd outside. Supposedly a band was there.. Forgot middle parts, but was playing some board game on a red table cloth with a dude frm band n someone else? Then someone bought out fresh batch of mini cupcakes ... Then woke up :(
lots of greys reds black accents.

will do a rough drawing of it soon... I crave cupcakes now :(

C for Christmas Project!

A: I've got too much time on my hands, with my school on strike since November.
B: I have always had this hobby in making 3D cards - popup, interactive, put it together yourself.

A + B = C = Christmas cards!!
I have decided to embark myself on a Christmas card making Project. I plan to create Christmas cards for my family and hopefully they will be completed and arrive on time for Christmas. I think I am a bit late, it being mid-December already. So I guess I have only 1 week's time to finish everything.

It's nothing huge, but a great way to do something I love, spread some love this holiday, and make good use of my time and stay off internet junk. I will record my daily progress here, and renew my love for public blogging :)